Friday, 16 June 2017

Go with the flow

I am sitting in the room. There’s a piece of watermelon kept on the plate. I admire nature that it has given it an incredible color-combination, green on the outside, red on the inside with black seeds like some beautiful painting. I pick it up to taste the yummy sugary juicy fruit that suddenly I hear some voice, I recognize the voice, who is it? What’s this music in the background? I feel a jerk and come out of my dream. “Wake up, we’ll get late for the class and turn your alarm off, the sound is annoying!” my roommate says in a bossy manner. I take my mobile in my hand and turn the alarm off. I am still half-asleep with eyes almost shut. I crawl on my bed and pick the curtain aside and peep out of the window. Sunshine just strikes my eyes and I shut them completely. I turn around and pick up my mobile to check time. “I am not late, I am awfully late”, I tell myself. I hurry up and get ready for the class.
She starts a conversation while walking.
She: What’s with this deep sleep? You usually get up on your own. Who were you dreaming today? Some actor?  Some cricketer?
Me (with a smirk): Watermelon.
She: What? (Begins to laugh) Are you all right?
Me: haha! I don’t know, I guess I need a break. I have an intuition we might get a break in the coming days. And yeah I love watermelon more than any actor or cricketer.
We continue to laugh and walk.
It’ a hot noon.  We are desperately waiting for the lunch and simultaneously solving the assignment sitting in our room. I get a call from home. I go out and attend so that she is not disturbed. I join her after 5 minutes. In the meantime, lunch arrives and she arranges everything and puts the food in the plates.
She: Why do you look so sad? Missing family?
Me: YES! You know there’s a wedding in my neighborhood tonight. So our street is sort of cheery. I wish I was home and could have been a part of all the fun.
She (playfully): Oh! That means you are missing your neighbors.
Me (confused): Damn! Am I missing my neighborhood too? Hey, I hardly interact with them. Oh God! I am actually behaving nuts.
She (laughing): It’s okay, you haven’t been home for a long time. May be that is making you very nostalgic. Leave it; it’s your birthday day-after, what’s the plan?
I smile at her and look outside the window thinking ‘who cares about birthday’. I just want to be with my family, it has been such a long time. But I see no hope as practically there is no likelihood of a short-break anytime soon. But I feel something instinctual. I continue eating the tasteless food and wondering what would be happening back home right now. 
It’s almost 2:00 pm. It’s hot with no electricity. I hear the message-tone of my phone. I pick it up and open the message. It reads “No class tomorrow”. The message is from the institution.  I am astonished and numb for a while. “Hey, just check your message-box, did you get any?” I inquire her. “We are free tomorrow”, she confirms asking if I would head to home now.
Me: Oh no. I need a two- day break at least. I won’t go.
She: Okay. Hey, I have heard there is some fault due to which electricity may not be there until evening.
We start laughing. She also informs me that there is a possibility that there’ll be no water supply in the evening and maybe for another day so I should wash the clothes without delay if I wanted to.
I sarcastically reply “What an interesting day, sounds like real fun” and pick up the bucket and almost half of my stuff from the cupboard and head straight to the washing area.
I think about not being able to make it to home and feel disappointed. I switch on the radio as I always need music in the background while doing the chores.  ‘Ab tere bin jee lenge hum’ from Aashiqui is playing on the channel. I pause for a while, smile to myself and continue. Next song is played and it adds more feel and melancholy to the atmosphere; ‘Kitni Baatein yaad aati hain’ from Lakshya. I feel as if radio guys also know my situation and thus they are playing songs that sound relevant.
After almost thirty- forty minutes, I get back to my room. I pick up the books and sit by window side. I put my earphones and change the channel. ‘Baji padi hai band heer ki ab iss band pe naache kaun’ is what the song says. It’s ‘Heer toh badi sad hai’ courtesy Tamasha. Now I don’t feel sad, I feel amused. I look above and say “What’s going on? What is universe trying to indicate?"
It’s almost 3:10 pm. There’s a knock on the door. I look up and see that it’s the new girl who just shifted to one of the rooms on our floor. “Hi, please come in”, I invite her inside. “Hello, no thank you, actually I need some help”. She lost her keys and doubts she has forgotten them in the food court she ate lunch at. She asks me to come along with her to find the keys.  After some twenty minutes we head back to the building. She found the keys thankfully. It is cloudy outside, seems like it might rain.
I get back to my chair and am reminded of the facts I’d almost forgotten a few minutes back, that I have to be sitting in this isolated place for another indefinite number of days, miles away from family.
There’s a sudden vague feeling and I pick up the phone and dial the institution’s phone number. The receptionist answers it.
Me: I wanted to confirm if there’s surely no class tomorrow.
She: Yes, it’s confirmed. Next class will be two days later means you have a two day break now.
Me: Wh-what?
I feel the adrenaline rush but I literally want to yell at her hearing this at the irresponsible way of passing on information. I shout in my head with sheer anger “Why the hell could you not tell this earlier? I would have been halfway right now. Dammit why did I not call them before?”
I keep it polite though and continue talking.
Me: You should have written the complete information in the message.
She: Actually I wasn’t the one who messaged the students. But we have informed everyone now. Check your inbox.
Me: Okay thank you.
I keep the phone down and run towards the hall to see my roomie. “Hey it’s off for two days”. She reacts the same way as I did in my head while on the phone earlier. “Going then?” she asks. “I don’t know, it’s already 4:15 pm and I won’t reach before dark. I have never travelled alone so late before plus look at the weather. If I go tomorrow morning I’ll have so much less time to stay there. Why does there have to be a catch in all my stories”. I feel perplexed and waste five more minutes. I call my mother and tell her the scene. She asks me to leave right away if I really wanted to and not worry about getting late and stuff. I disconnect the call and by mistake press the music key of my phone that directly opens the last-playing song. The song is midway and it says “Jo karna hai wo aaj kar, na iss ko taal baawre… Kyon” from Barfi. I tilt my head to look up and smile and say ‘Okay and thank you’ to God.  
“Packing?” she asks. “Who cares? Anyway half of my stuff is getting dried up outside.” I change quickly but avoid combing hair. I don’t want to waste another second, I have already wasted enough. I put some required things in my bag and take a deep breath before departing.
“Wanna come along?” I ask her. She smiles and declines saying that she is planning to go to her relatives’ place that stay in the same city.
Me: Okay take care.
She: You too. Have fun.
We share a brief hug and I take her leave.
I rush towards the local bus stop and wait for few minutes for the local bus to go to main Bus-stand. There is no sight of it anywhere close. I don’t waste time and choose to go by an auto-rickshaw. It’s already loaded and I get little space but I don’t really care. I sit uncomfortably but somehow manage. It gets windy outside. The dust flies and gets decorated on my face. I feel the sandy layer on my face. “Ughh... Well, my sunscreen should take care of it”, I think to myself. I take out my dupatta from the bag and cover my face. The child sitting on the seat opposite to mine stares funnily at me while I’m still covering. ‘Guess I look like a Ninja’, I think while laughing at myself and looking outside.
I reach the stop; pay the driver and pace towards the counter which is jam-packed. I sneak out of the crowd to board the packed bus. I awkwardly get inside and grab the last unoccupied seat. ‘Yes!’ I murmur like I just conquered something. Bus leaves after a few minutes.
A girl, almost my age or perhaps younger, sits next to me on the window seat. She is constantly engrossed in her phone with earphones on. A few stations later, a ticket checker enters the bus. When he comes towards us I take out my ticket to show. The girl on my side is lost and busy talking on phone looking outside. I tap on her shoulder and point towards checker when she turns around. She checks her bag and replies “I don’t have the tickets, I think I threw them.” I instantly turn towards her stunned at her words and the ease with which she said that. Passengers in the proximity also watch. The checker asks her to pay for the ticket again and the bus- conductor gives her another one. She looks outside, her hair flying due to wind. I feel she is in tears so I rub her shoulder in order to calm her and tell her not to be upset. She turns around and I see she is not teary and is perfectly well. She says ‘arey I am fine, I know myself, and I am like that only, haha’.She again indulges in her mobile phone. I smile weirdly and look on the other side. I am astounded at her recklessness.
She departs at the next stop and I take the window seat. It starts to rain after some time. I feel the droplets falling on my face. It is soothing and the fragrance of mud is refreshing. I close the window as the rain gets heavier. Suddenly the bus comes to halt a few minutes later. People chatter that it’s a traffic jam due to ongoing construction work and rain has added to the turbulence. ‘Am I on some adventure spree today?’ I think to myself. Fortunately traffic gets cleared after sometime and finally I get closer to the destination. The rain stops but it is still drizzly.
I eventually reach and feel delighted to be in my city. My brother waits for me at the counter. At home, I meet everyone although they look busy getting ready for the wedding. Two hours later, I find myself sitting in the wedding hall; I was compelled to come here. I see all the familiar faces and greet them. It’s nice to be here finally. People dance on the beats of “Mauja hi Mauja”, that plays on DJ. I giggle after hearing it and only I understand why. “What a filmy life I have”, I say.
It’s the birthday noon. We are watching T.V and there is some news that’s sensationalized like anything, they are discussing the fruit-adulteration. It says “Kya aap jaante hain jo tarbooz aap kha rahe hain uske andar kyaa hai” , I immediately change the channel saying that these people only tell problems but never give any way out to erase them. ‘‘Anyway, what do you want to eat today? It’s your day”, they ask me. “Watermelon”, I reply and we all laugh together.
I look up, smile and say “Thank you” to the almighty.

P.S : This piece of work is part real, part fiction.
P.P.S :I wouldn’t have imagined that morning that I would get to spend the evening with family. This is life, full of surprises and fun. And universe is all the time trying to help us out. So, go with your instincts and learn to make fun of even the most dreadful situations.

Monday, 12 June 2017

Always in our Hearts

When a loved one passes away, there are no words left to say
Life gets shattered and you feel numb but time flies day by day

Their face is what you see whenever you close your eyes
But they are no longer with us, comes as the worst surprise

I look around and see sad faces; all I hear are crying voices
I wish we could undo this, I wish life gave us choices

I go back in time and remember happy days
Certain things are not in our hands, everybody says

I know it’s painful and sometimes you want to scream
But we shall face this together as we are family and a team

Life is hard and at times unfair, unreasonable 
Cry and mourn the misfortune but don’t let it make you miserable

He gave a million reasons to smile and happy memories to keep
He is with us always in our hearts down deep

Now stand-up, spirits up and keep your head high
Go make him proud, go live your life, go and touch the sky

Embrace the people around, as this is not the end
As we must move ahead, that's nature's law my friend

P.S : We miss you and you will always be with us in our memories. When someone so special is not with us anymore, it's hard to believe what is going on. Everything else seems unimportant and meaningless. It's difficult and it may take us really long, but we will have to move on with life.